Guess what...i was not able to sleep well
I woke up early with two "bloodshot" eyes!
But it's so weird. My brain is working...my eyes are moving
But my body won't move!
As if my body prefers to be on my bed for the rest of the day
Too weak or to heavy to get up
But of course i have to get up...or else i have to ask my mother to drag me
I have so much to do.
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My Sunday:
We had post birthday celebration for my Dad
It's a "small-fun gathering"
Again...my brain is working, my eyes are moving
But i spent the rest of the day on the couch at Starbucks (too weak or too lazy to walk around)
The Green Tea frapp did not help at all
I was smiling the whole day
But deep inside, i know i want to lie down and sleep for a looooooooooooong time
and if it's possible, i want to shut down my brain just for a couple of hours
Still, seeing my Dad happy gave me enough energy to make it through the day
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Why does my brain keep on functioning
Even though my body is already on its lowest level
Too many thoughts
How i wish i have this built in Recycle Bin, where i can drop all my "useless thoughts"
and then have it restored when i found some free time
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Just like now...my brain is working
I can still type my thoughts here
never caring if there would be persons reading this
never caring if others would misinterpret me
But yes.....my brain is working
But again...i don't have the energy to speak
Or rather, i don't have the courage to speak up
and say : I AM TIRED
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I am still alive
Breathing
Thinking
I am not sure if i should be happy or sad
My emotions are all mixed up
I am alive...so i have to go on
Damn.
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