She's leaving

My bestfriend is leaving again...

Now what should i feel...

Sad? again?

I just hold on to the thought that someday we'll see each other again

I wish she will have a safe trip

I am happy that she's now having a happy and stable life...

Seeing her smile...is what i have always wanted for her









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Suddenly Sad

I am not sure if i woke up on the wrong side of the bed or what
But it cannot be since i have only one side to get up to...since on my right side is my "wailing wall"
Anyway, as i woke up...i suddenly feel weak! Certainly not physically weak. I just feel like...i don't want to go on...and i can't go on.
I feel sad. I feel like i just want to lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling and think about my future.
Then i saw my laptop...should i open it? But decided not to...and i didn't even bother to open my cellphone. I felt really weird...actually up to now. I feel sad! I am not sure why...
I told myself...i'm supposed to be happy because every thing's going well..and as planned (these days) so why feel sad? Or have i done any wrong decision? Confusion...that's the answer or perhaps depression?

Am i not too young to feel depressed? All i know i shouldn't be like this for a long time...because i have the most demanding work in the world!

Come to think of it...have i really woken up? or am i still sleeping and all these sadness are just part of my dream?














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First in 2008

Here are my "firsts" for this year...as i told you time flies so fast

I am sick (my first flu for this year)
I just watched "Alvin and the Chipmunks" (my first movie for this year) which i truly enjoyed for i must admit i miss the cartoon characters in my "childhood days". No offense with the latest ones...i just love the old classic cartoons...nothing beats them. i wonder if they will release "Chip and Dale" too. ^^
I read Ripples of Joy (my first book again...for this year)
The son of my Japanese friend said I looked like Japanese (hmmm...that's something new and a "first" of course)
I woke up feeling...giggly and soooooooooooo happy. (another first...^^)

Now, i am wondering what other "first" will i be experiencing this year. I hope it will be all good ones and not traumatic or overly dramatic...

ooopppps I forgot...I just found out, I can be a songwriter too...woohooo! I am so happy with the results and of course happy with the reaction of the people too. I just hope i can overcome this shyness. Well, it's much better to be shy than to be overly confident (i guess)

nuff said...I'm waiting for more "first"







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