Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Suddenly Sad

I am not sure if i woke up on the wrong side of the bed or what
But it cannot be since i have only one side to get up to...since on my right side is my "wailing wall"
Anyway, as i woke up...i suddenly feel weak! Certainly not physically weak. I just feel like...i don't want to go on...and i can't go on.
I feel sad. I feel like i just want to lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling and think about my future.
Then i saw my laptop...should i open it? But decided not to...and i didn't even bother to open my cellphone. I felt really weird...actually up to now. I feel sad! I am not sure why...
I told myself...i'm supposed to be happy because every thing's going well..and as planned (these days) so why feel sad? Or have i done any wrong decision? Confusion...that's the answer or perhaps depression?

Am i not too young to feel depressed? All i know i shouldn't be like this for a long time...because i have the most demanding work in the world!

Come to think of it...have i really woken up? or am i still sleeping and all these sadness are just part of my dream?












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