Thank you 2017

2017 was a difficult year
But it was not harsh
It was challenging
But not bad
I was exhausted
But not restless
It was stressful
But I survived

I met danger few times
But I managed to escape
When a dreadful thing came
And I lost someone very dear
I did not cry. I remained calm.
It was very painful. But I found comfort.

Just when I thought nothing good was happening...
Amazing and wonderful surprises came.
They were beyond my imagination.
I’ve been to places I only see in dreams
I’ve seen things that are out of ordinary

Those things are as bright and colorful as a rainbow
But I only smiled because I saw my special one
He made everything beautiful and magical
I know I don’t deserve these or maybe I do
But it is true...Dreams do come true
Good things always happen when I least expect it

When I was about to give up
Help came at my side.
And when I think about it
I was never alone
I was never lonely
I was never lost
I always find my way

So 2017, thank you for making me braver
I am stronger now than before
You left me very exhausted
I almost couldn’t stand up
Yet I survived with a grateful heart

Because they are not mine

2017 left a week ago.
It came too fast
And left too soon
I had a hard time catching up with him.
But I did my best. I gave my best.
I dont have any regrets
But it left me exhausted.

It was a very challenging year for me.
It was difficult. A little harsh.
It pushed me to try harder
To protect what I have and those who I love
To get what I want, I worked harder
I planned better
I loved deeply
I cared a lot
I stayed while others walked away
And when things failed, I did not give up.
When people told me it’s impossible and there’s no hope...i still tried.

Until...I had no strength left
I found myself on the floor
Weak and exhausted.
Most of my plans did not work
My efforts were useless
My best was not enough
I tried but i failed.
God’s plan prevailed.

No matter how much I love
How much I care
All I have are not mine
God owns everything and everyone
From now on I need to constantly remind myself that He is generous enough to lend me things and people I need in my life.
I love them too much, I always forget I don’t own them.
So when God takes them back one by one, I feel betrayed.

Painful...but what can I do?
I only borrowed my life too.
And though I try so hard, I have no control of what’s going to happen.
I can only hope and pray
For God to allow me to be with them longer.

From now on, I will cherish each day I’m with them.
I will appreciate and love them more.
Am I giving up my dreams? Maybe for now.
I am too tired to plan again.
It will be up to God anyway. He always win.
My efforts are nothing.

I don’t know what 2018 has for me.
Am I hopeless? No I am not.
I am wishing for something good.
But God's plans are greater than mine.
2017 almost took my life away.
But I wasn't ready then to let go.
If God will ask me now if i’m ready to go?
Yes, I am ready.
I already gave my best in everything.
I have nothing left.
Only patience to wait...

10 years ago

10 years ago I made a wish
I sat on my bed and prayed
I asked God an impossible thing
To meet you...someday
And that someday arrived in a few days
I did not wait too long
God must be beside me when I made that wish.

Maybe I did something good
Maybe God is pleased
Maybe God wanted me to be happy
Maybe He wanted to show me what He can do
Whatever His reason...meeting you was and is the happiest moment of my life


10 years ago I loved you
Today...I still do
And I thank God that though not often...
I can see you every now and then

10 years from now
Only God knows what will happen
Maybe we will be together
Or far from each other
Maybe you will forget me
Or will still remember me

10 years from now
Maybe God has already answered my wish today
To hold your hand...to stay beside you
And be with you everyday

Happy 10 years!