I couldn't remember the last time I saw a rainbow. More than 5 years maybe.
And lately, I've been thinking about God's promises for my future...
Been sad for two months now
I needed to smile...
To re-energize myself
Be excited and laugh again
At 4:07pm Dec 29, 2012 - God's super ears heard my thoughts
He can read minds I know...better than Edward Cullen
I was listening to my Ipod
(as if someone called me) I turned my head to my right
and there it was...My rainbow
Not a perfect arch...the colors were fading
But perfect for the day
It made me smile
and tonight, I heard myself laughing again
So this is how if feels to have a happy weekend...
MOVE ON! I always hear this words from people I know who doesn't know me well.
I hear the same words from people close to me but can't understand me.
I know they don't mean anything bad. Their intentions are pure. They are just saying it to comfort me.
What they don't know is...I get my comfort from pretending that my grandfather is still here.
For me, "moving on" means getting out of a bad situation, leaving it behind and erasing it from memory.
Moving on means living a new life and changing myself for the better.
I don't need to move on because my grandfather was one of God's greatest blessing to me. His memory still remains a blessing. His death might be a bad situation but my time with him is too precious to leave behind.
I don't need to move on because I get my strength by remembering him
That I have a duty to finish, goals to meet and promises to keep
I don't want to move on because by pretending that he's still alive
I can remember who I am and what I am supposed to do
and that I should endure whatever pain this life offers
because after all there is still Heaven
If I do good and I finish the race, then saying good bye would be meaningless
In just a few years, we will see each other again.
People in the same boat knows we don't have to move on
Because it's what keeps us going....
1. Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson are a couple. Officially. Yay!!! For four years already...I can't believe it! But I'm happy. The rumors are true! How can they keep it a secret, I don't know. Anyway, my "fan wish" came true. Edward and Bella together :)
2. Kristen Stewart cheated Robert Pattinson by kissing her SWTH Director. (WHAT????) That's insane!
2. After some weeks, Robert forgave her and they are back together - Awesome!
3. The bloody "half-cooked" Hainanese Chicken served to me at Chicken Rice Shop. (I politely called the waitress and showed her my "bleeding" Hainanese Chicken. I expected her to replace it with a "cooked" one. She did replace it... with "another" bloody hainanese chicken.) I'm not a vampire that's why I don't like blood. I'm not going to eat there again.
4. I can call and text my friends abroad for free? Really?! Wow! I love Viber, Kakao Talk and Line. Those apps are really cool! Thanks to technology.
5. I can drink 4 cups of coffee in a day and still feel sleepy. That means I really have the most boring job.
6. It's possible to have several male friends (really really close friends) and not feel any romantic feelings to any of them. Just friendship. I just discovered that I don't fall in love easily or I simply don't want to fall in love with a friend. I prefer strangers???
7. A relative can hurt and betray you just as fast as a low life standing in an alley can stab you. It hurts a lot to be honest. Can't trust anyone.
8. Not all milk tea taste good. I will stick to Gong Cha.
9. The number of Koreans coming to Manila is increasing. Korean groceries, salon and restaurants are all over the Metro. Malate area is sort of called "little seoul" by K-fanatics. Filpinos going to Korea to visit their favorite K-drama shooting locations are also increasing. So, how about exchanging countries? I don't mind. I love Autumn and Winter.
10. Naia Terminal 1 is still the worst Airport. (Dirty, old, disorganized and small). I love my country but I hate that Airport.
11. Baby soup in China, dog meat soup in Korea, dolphin/whale meat in Japan - OH MY! I'd rather starve to death. No offense. I'm just not that hungry.
12. Lee Min Ho in Manila...wow!!! Where was I that time? At my boring work :(
So near yet so far.
13. Can't find a "so-good-cannot-take-my-eyes-off-cannot-stop-reading-just-like-twilight-and-harry-potter" book to read. My eyes feel lonely. I really need a good book but I'm not interested to read 50 Shades of Grey.
14. Barack Obama won again. I thought majority of the Americans don't like him. So it's true, the more you hate the more you love.
15. December came and the weather was still hot! What's happening? Even the weather is arriving late. It woke up confused just like me.
