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My Life My Race

Saturday, December 31, 2016

I love you 2016!

Though you made me cry a hundred times when you came
You made me smile a lot
You made me laugh hard
I played, I jumped, I ran as fast as I could
I sang my favorite songs
I danced like crazy
I left my work undone for the person I love
Yup this year...I stopped and smelled the roses and it felt good!

Though I got a handful of heartaches and failed many times
You sent me surprises
Gifts beyond my imagination

I cried a lot this year...
But my heart is glad
I will miss you 2016

When you came, they say you'll be bad to me
I say you weren't really bad
You are my good but tough friend
You want me to stay strong
To be different yet kind

Thanks for all the hope and love you left in my heart.

I will always remember you
Please tell 2017 to be extremely good to me too.

Tuesday, December 27, 2016


I haven't moved on and forgotten the tragic death of my beloved "Aga"
when another precious one left me to join Aga in Heaven last December 19, 2016.

Her name is "Joy"

Joy came to our family 9 years ago.
She was a cute, very fat, "huggable" and playful puppy.
She would run all over the house.
She would knock down anything that's in front of her.
She would jump excitedly at the sight of her meal.
She was always hungry.

She was a big puppy.
A big, fat ball of fur
She's always full of energy.
Her friends couldn't keep up with her when she's running.
She's always in a good mood so i named her "Joy"

She's a smart dog.
One time I placed my palm in front of her and she placed her paw on top of my palm.
Then i realized she's learning how to give me a "handshake"
She did that to my mom as well until it became a routine.
It became her way of greeting us everyday.

She was a survivor.
My two other puppies died from parvo virus but she survived.
She would drink all her medicines.
She would eat no matter how weak she felt.
She's a good patient her doctor said.
She couldn't get up but she would still give me handshakes every morning.
She never gave up.

I cared for her a lot.
I was very protective of her.
I almost lost her I said.
I didn't want her to get sick again
I provided everything she would need
Including her own nanny.
Yes...she had a nanny.
A bad one. I failed at judging her personality.
While I was at work, the nanny would hurt her.
Because of that Joy became sad.
So sad she became a ferocious dog.
She would bite anyone who would try to come near her.
She wouldn't let anyone touch her....
Everyone including my other dogs were scared of her
She wouldn't trust anyone...except me.
She remained sweet and loyal to me.
In her eyes, I am her mommy.
She would always listen to me.

But then, I needed to leave her for a while.
I had to go someplace.
My mama and papa were both scared of her.
I talked to Joy and told her to be nice to my mama.
Because mama would be the one to take care of her.
I know she's a good dog.
So I wasn't surprised when my mama told me Joy became sweet to her.
Every morning and night, it was my mama who would take her for a walk
It became their routine even after my trip.
My mama would often buy her treats and she loved that.

Joy wasn't close to any of my other dogs
except to Aga (my poodle) and Winter (my shihtzu) who are now both in Heaven.
She loved my cats too.
I am guessing she wanted to be a "mama" already.
She wanted to have her own puppies.

9 years flew so fast.
I didn't notice the time was running out.
I was shocked when I woke up one morning and Joy was already gone.
Her eyes are closed
She was not moving
Her heart stopped beating.
I couldn't help but cry.
I asked God why.
She was not sick.
She was okay.
My mama said it's her time to go.
Her purpose was done.

I wasn't able to say good bye.
But I am sure she heard me say "i love you" before she closed her eyes to sleep
Dogs can't talk.
But I know she loved me.

Good bye my Joy
I love you very much
Thank you for your love and loyalty
Thank you for being good to me
I will see you in Heaven

Monday, December 26, 2016

Christmas is Your day

Dear Jesus,

How are you today?
It's your birthday!
I hope your day will be filled with praises and thanksgiving.

Jesus, you have been so good to me this year.
You gave me things I only wished but never asked...
You made things happen for me
You answered my prayers
Gave me my requests
Surprised me with beautiful moments

All those things I thought could not happen just happened.
Nothing is impossible with you by my side
My friend witnessed that moment when you surprised me...
You sent your gift just when I was about to give up.
She couldn't explain how did it happen. She said "it must be God"
Truly it's You!
Because You didn't want me to go home sad.
You didn't want me to give up.
No not yet.

I am nothing but a weak human
But you moved mountains for me.
I asked you "what did i do to deserve your kindness"
How can you love someone like me?
I can never understand your patience and overflowing mercy for me

This year, different troubles were thrown at me
Trials greeted me at the door of every opportunity
Yet, you made me strong
Stronger than i was before
You never left my side
You hold my hand every time I feel too weak to stand
Jesus, I am never alone

Though, another precious one left me this year
And I have been betrayed again and again
You are there to comfort me
You are there to give me new hope

Now that it's your birthday...
What can I give you?
What can I offer you?
I am not good in keeping promises
But this one I will not break
That You will always be my God
I will not...never will...
Bow down to other gods

Wherever I go
Whatever I achieve
I will not forget you
May I do something good
And make you smile everyday

Happy Birthday Jesus!

Monday, September 19, 2016

It is not easy...but I will not give up

It's funny to know that there are people who see me as a girl who gets everything
They think that whatever good things I have now...i got them easy
"Perhaps because she's an only child...she gets what she wants"
"Perhaps because she's close to her boss"
"Perhaps because she graduated with honors"
"Perhaps because she have well known friends"

They made several "theories" with no basis.
One person said "because she is using her charm"
"She knows who to meet and attract"
"She is using her connections"
They make stories based on what they believe not on what they see

Their malicious minds prevent them to see the real me.
They cannot see how hard i work everyday to achieve my goals
To have an 8 hour sleep became my yearly birthday wish
They cannot see that God is only blessing the work of my hands.
I have plans and dreams
But none of it will happen if it is not God's will.

In everything, I always do my best
But it is through God's grace that things which I thought are impossible becomes possible.
It is He who made some of my dreams come true.

My life is not perfect. It is not always happy.
I just choose to be thankful all the time.
I have problems too. But i rarely speak about them.
The more you talk about problems the bigger they become.
I don't bore people around me with my worries.
But if i need help, i know who to ask.

I don't choose who I meet
But i choose my friends wisely.
I remember people who are always there for me when I am feeling down and sad.
I appreciate people who are happy when I am happy
And I am loyal to those who truly love me.

It doesn't matter who they are or what they have
I don't care about their status.
I care whether they are true to me or not.
I know how to treasure good friends.

It's funny that they are wondering why I am always smiling.
I didn't know that smiling all the time could be a problem.

I know nothing is permanent
So i learned to appreciate everything.
I enjoy every minute I am with my parents
I enjoy my time with my friends. I laugh at our silliness when we're together
And i enjoy every moment I am with the person I love.

I learned not to complain much
I learned to be patient
My life is not easy.
Trials come and go
I have fears and doubts
But I don't want to give up
Unless...God tells me to stop

Sunday, April 24, 2016


I like that he is brave and courageous
I like that he is man enough to face his opponents
I admire his wits and confidence
I like that he has dreams and plans for our country
I like that he do not deny his words

Too much bravery makes a man fool

I do not like it when he cursed the Pope
Although I am a Born Again Christian, I know the Pope should be respected
But if he cannot respect the Pope, surely he cannot respect an ordinary person
Much more a person with nothing but a name given to him by his mother

I do not like it that he talks about "killing" as if it's just another household chore
I understand that criminals should be punished and that some deserve death
But to speak of killing as if it's a normal thing to do
Only encourages the minds of the young to think
That "killing" is an immediate option
And that it solves anything faster than fair justice.
He is giving an idea that "violence" is not wrong
But in fact, should be practiced

I do not like it that from his mouth comes
foul words
He speak words that a would be President should not speak
I believe a President should be a role model to everyone
There's no perfect President.
Surely whoever would be the next one...Has flaws...
But a President's words should always be true and proper
A cursed word should not come out of his or her mouth.

I wonder what things are in the heart of Mr. Duterte
Perhaps full of hate and anger
For you will know a person's heart from the words he speak

I do not like his lack of respect for women
His recent comment towards a certain rape victim is unacceptable
Again he showed his character...brave but fool
Even if he didn't mean it...and said it as a joke...
A wise man would know which words to use...

I hate him for his lack of compassion for stray animals
He said in an interview that the best way to solve the growing population of strays
And to control rabies virus is to shoot or poison the stray dogs and cats.
Now I know that a man can be brave even if he has no brain
Instead of promoting "neuter and spay" programs to solve the growing population
And to sponsor free anti-rabies shot...
He again decided to solve the issue by "killing"
How easy it is for him to kill innocent creatures...
Perhaps he had not heard that a man who is cruel to animals surely cannot be a good man

I do not like that whenever he would lose in battle of words and wisdom
He would provoke his opponent to engage in a boxing match with him...
Being a brave man is not measured by the number of fights he won or number of people he killed
A brave man stands up and speaks with dignity and respect
Fast to admit his mistakes and would act with integrity
Honest and promotes peace
He would value life and protect it like a man that honors God
And most of all a brave man knows who to fear
That above him is God
That as a man he should do what is right in the eyes of God
And not what he thinks is right

I am thankful I am in a Democratic country
I am free to choose who I want to be the next President of the Philippines
I have the right to speak, write and share my opinions
So do not hate me for saying I will not vote for Mr.Duterte
I respect anyone who says "Duterte is my President"
So respect me also for saying "I will not vote for Mr.Duterte"