My Life My Race

My Life My Race

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

The power of destiny

I used to have a daily plan. I plan everything
I write them on paper with date and time
Believing, I can organize my life like that
Because, I don't like surprises. I don't like to be shocked
I want things to happen the way I expect them to happen

But no day is predictable anymore
No idea when to wear my best white pants
And I risk every white shoes I have
Because it is possible to rain on a sunny day
So I carry an umbrella on a supposed to be perfect day

Really, I cannot control everything
Just when I thought things are going well
That soon my dreams will become real
That my patience will be rewarded
That soon I will meet my destiny

I got stuck in traffic. No car was moving
Heavy rain floods the streets where I walked.
My best dress was ruined.
I lost my phone. I lost his number.
I lost the destiny I thought was mine.

I lost his number, I lost the moment
The rain stopped the following day
But, I did not hear from him again
and I did not see him again
Our paths never crossed again.

I learned my lesson and threw all my daily plans away
I asked God to plan my life for me instead. It's His anyway.
I stopped believing in destiny
and told myself "there is no fairy tale"
I stopped chasing something that is not mine.

I live each day trusting God
I tell him my dreams and my wishes
And guess what? God sent me a gift
Better than what I have imagined
Too far from me and too impossible
But possible and easy for God

Guess what? A free schedule on my busy calendar
A yes from my parents
A nod from my boss
A ticket too cheap to ignore
All I need is my bag and I'm ready to go


The clouds are blue on a typhoon day
No strong wind...not even a rain drop
No hindrances, no problems
My path is suddenly covered in roses
God's plan works better than mine

This happens every year
Every time I feel I need to smile
So I am asking myself if this is my destiny
Is he the one? Only God knows...
If he is mine, he will always be mine.

But now I know, destiny is powerful
Too strong to resist and no one can stop it
I do not know what my future will be
I still don't plan for tomorrow
All I know is...my destiny
is what God has planned for me.














Tuesday, July 15, 2014

ONE CHALLENGE DONE...MORE TO GO. I CAN DO IT!

I can't remember entering any game
But my adult life seems to be full of challenges
I have observed that as I grow older
my problems grow too.
They come in different sizes now

Just like a game, I needed to use tools and strategies to win
Often I lose...but of course I can always start again.
I am always tempted to give up...or maybe skip a part
I know there is no short cut and it's wrong to cheat
So here I am...trying my best

After many tries and cries, I did it!
I finished a challenge! I won!
I got my reward! I survived!
I am not a loser after all.
I can be strong and I can be brave.

The feeling of winning is addictive
It is hard to sleep when you have a problem
But it is harder to sleep when the problem is gone
Because all I want to do is laugh, cry and run
and eat the biggest chocolate I can find

An Iced Mocha would be great too
and 2 slices of my favorite chocolate mousse
Eating an ice cream straight from the pint
With my earphones stuck to me all day
I will relax! I will have fun!

While on the sofa and watching TV
I remember who helped me pass this challenge
I know I cannot do everything on my own.
I need God. In fact, I will not survive without Him
In fact, He did everything.

I am just a weak human. Pretending to be strong
Until the next challenge...
I will relax and try not to worry
I will smile and be silent
Knowing that my God is always with me



Monday, July 7, 2014

My doctor was surprised. I am healed!

Today...I jump, I sing and I dance
I celebrate because I am healed!
No more nasal polyps. No more blocked Eustachian tube.
No more clogged nose. No more head aches.
No more buzzing sounds. No more ear aches.


Today, I said good bye to my 10 year old nasal polyps
It is a happy and sweet good bye.
How did it happen?
No surgery...no antibiotics...no pins and needles.
Just my POWERFUL GOD.

When you have Jesus...who needs medicine?
Even my doctor was surprised!
It's just that I know who to call when I am in pain.
And because I know how to pray.

So, today I celebrate!
I see miracle in my life
Because I opened my eyes and I have faith
And tonight, I will sleep with a thankful heart.