My Life My Race

My Life My Race

Wednesday, December 31, 2008


Now that 2008 had its farewell party
Majority claimed that it's their worst year.

Not for me...I must say.

There were good and not so good happenings
Countless goods...such as "I am still cracked skull thankfully"

Some bad ones...which...could still be considered as blessings just put in a badly wrapped package.
Those unfortunate events made me a lot stronger and wiser....
Come to think of it, life would be too boring without the bad stuffs.
When life becomes too ends one's purpose.
A perfect day still has to end.
That's why God made the sunset.
I say, contentment is the key to happiness
that's one principle I learned.
To be content on what you have and to adjust yourself to the means provided.

Thank you 2008!

Nice to meet you 2009!

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Sunday, December 28, 2008

No cracked skull for New Year

Someone or something's been trying to crack my skull yesterday...(absurd)

Two strikes of badluck made its way and found a hole on my bubble protection of good lucks...

It was during the afternoon, I was leaning on the wall against the door...trying in vain to maximize my vacation by holding Meyer's New Moon on my right hand...reading, while my left hand was holding my cat's leash...letting him nibble a plant in our garden.

It was fast!

a strong wind passed by...then our heavy wooden door hit my head

It gave me a dizzy feeling obviously

No blood...good!

I spent the day hiding it from my Mom

Coz I was not sure if she would curse the door or me :)

But the bluish green that appeared on my cheek several hours after, exposed the deal

and I was right...My mom did curse me and not the door

I blamed the wind though...hahaha

The bad luck did not stop there...

Persuasive indeed

At 4am

Some craziness wrapped me and I decided to sleep on the foot of my bed...

with my legs on my pillow supposed to be for my head

and my head on my pillow purposely for my feet

I just felt like sleeping that way

and it did me a good thing...

(luck is still with me)

saving my head from a frame hanging on the wall which fell on my bed

the reason for the fall?

no idea

The wind was not guilty.

No earthquake or any other forms of shaking

My windows were all closed.

so much for reading a vampire story.

Well, I hope to survive the year without a cracked skull.

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Thursday, December 25, 2008

Coffee and tranquility

I am on a tranquil mode right now.

A good book on my right hand
A cup of coffee on my table
Iron and Wine on my earphone...placed securely on my ears...tuning out outside noise
A cold wind...
A drizzle...
and a laptop to write this.

What else is left?

A hope that this moment will last than expected

It feels so good not to think and care of anything else
Let tomorrow worry for its own

Happy Christmas everyone!
Enjoy the holidays :)

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Wednesday, December 24, 2008




My wisdom is not enough to fathom the length of your existence

In simplicity, I would like to know "how old are you?"

Perhaps someday I could ask you that :)

In the meantime, I would rest my query on the truth that you will only grow old...but you will never cease.

What can I give you then besides my life as a gift?

May my trust and faith serve as a precious gift to you.

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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Vampires are believers too

Okay, so now I am pretty sure why I am so drawn to Stephenie Meyer's Twilight and my loyalty to J.K. Rowling is diminishing. (just a quarter)
No...not just because Edward is a dashing vampire and I have the same stubbornness Bella has.
It's for the reason that Stephenie was able to mix reality and fantasy in one...or rather four books.

This will sound fictional okay? But just to share my interest
From the book, Carlisle (Edward's foster parent) who happens to be a Vampire answers Bella's inquiry as to why his family is not doing the "obvious" meaning - kill the humans rather than satisfy themselves with animal blood and why does he love his job as a doctor. Carlisle said he never doubted that there is a God...and that heaven and hell do exist and somehow he wishes they will be given small credit for living like that. Since he's already a vampire...perceived to be the bad guy...the monster...the least he could do is: save lives

The Cullen family are vampires slash angels.

So in other words "even Vampires believe in God"

So (again) how come there are people roaming on this earth living as if there's no God or even questioning and making/creating several theories...depending on science...relying on technology....trusting their limited wisdom...

Shouldn't we do the most obvious thing also?

Need I say more?

or should we really wait till the rocks do the worshipping?

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What's wrong with Friendster?

I am suddenly getting "freak comments" from "people" on my list of friends. When I asked them about it, they denied sending it...and of course I do believe it did not come from them.

So what's wrong with friendster lately?

It's not as safe as it used to be.

But I am lazy enough to waste more time creating another mini homepage.

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Sunday, December 21, 2008

Cold days are my lucky days

Here are the random list:

-Business doing good, despite the recession going's still surviving.
- My pets are all in pretty good shape (they love the cold too)
- My parents are happy and healthy
- All my relationships are running smoothly...although one of it is disjointed, i can still say it's bearable.
- Work is good...a bit boring...but good enough for now.
- Can sleep for 8 hours (just this Christmas month)
- Completed the Twilight Saga and was lucky enough to get the illustrated movie companion. I am so into it that I also bought the OST. Can't wait for the DVD.
- My interest to Stephenie Meyer's work became a positive distraction to me and a great help in forgetting someone I am supposed to forget months ago. I am moving on! Hurray for me!

But Damn!
I received a letter from "the used to be focal point of my attention" for two years. Just when I was about to bid my farewell and start anew....
and leave any activity I have done with regards to...
It totally disrupted my decision.
I am about to say goodbye...doesn't he know?
Now he left me with another thought to think and care about.

Oh well...I will think about it some other time.
He's not on my top list of priorities lately.
As I am not on his top list also.
That's how it is.
"Only for the moment"
A bliss...
Nothing special...nothing remarkable...
Just a dream.

Cold days are my lucky days...DEFINITELY!!!

I am excited for Christmas...the birthday of my dearest best friend...JESUS :)

Should I go to London? or USA?

Haha...or should I find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?

Nuff said!!!

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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

This's classical

Last night, I saw an old piano piece in my book case.
Nostalgia hit me.
I went to my piano...hesitantly at first.
Have not played it for so many months.
The old piece was the one I played on my very first recital..."Doll's Dream" by Theodore Oesten. A timeless piece...way back 18th century.
A long one...about four pages.

Thinking that my parents were already in the confines of their asleep
I played softly.
As I played...I came to notice the weakness of my fingers.
It's all "rusty".
I did not have any difficulty playing the piece before.
But last fingers did not glide smoothly on my piano's ivory keys.
I think it comes with age
and also with my lack of practice.

Oblivious to my mom's sudden presence
I continued to play.
Then she spoke a whispering tone (as if I'm doing something illegal haha)
"Good you find time to play that piano".
She encouraged me to practice my "gifted" skill whenever I have the time instead of lingering too much on my computer screen.
She's very honest in speaking her thoughts such as: "It's fine to spend some time in front of the pc but it's not good to spend ALL your time in front of it and forgetting those things you used to do"

Actually...she won't mind If I linger on my pc.
But she's very keen to "some emails" (come and go) hahaha
She said it's taking too much of my time and that it's not doing me any good at all.

I nod in agreement.


On the other hand...she approved my new interest
which is: love for twilight saga.

Hilariously, she thought it's safer to adore a vampire....a fictional character
than someone who truly exists but could not promise any protection...or guarantees
leaving the future...unknown
and the price of being with that someone is " too costly"

I still love fast songs though
But the classics will always remain to be the "favorites."

Like my "classic old self."

I now very well know what "time management" means :)

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Sunday, December 14, 2008

Dazzling December

December is my fave month.
A surprise to those who thought it's August.

Unlike Bella Swan (Edward's apple of the eye), I love the cold.

I truly love cold days without the rain.

I am comfortable to wear Jackets and sweaters everyday
than summer dresses...please don't force me (haha)

My perfect day is described as "cloudy and windy".
A day when the sun is in "hiding."

On the contrary...I like the sun.
I love seeing the sun rising and setting.
It's the HEAT that I don't appreciate.

My dear bestfriend once told me "I am "cold-hearted"
Loving the cold doesn't make me one :)
I am still of course a human being with a heart as warm as the coal.


Since last week...I spent all my free time reading nothing but "Twilight."
and guess what? I luckily got all the four books: Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn- half of the credit goes to my "Batman". THANKS!!!

Collecting all those four is not easy...BELIEVE ME! It takes a lot of patience and a great deal of stamina to go from one bookstore to another...getting hold of a copy is like finding a gold at the end of the rainbow.

The answer I hated the most last week is: "sorry it's all sold out"

So what's in the book?
If i have to describe it in a brief statement it would be: "An extremely good looking modern day vegetarian vampire who doesn't want to be a monster and would rather save a young, smart, observant, pretty clumsy girl who later falls in love with him and is willing to exchange her humanity and become a vampire in order to live as an Immortal with her one true love."

Thumbs up to Stephenie Meyer- a gifted writer. I look forward to read more of her future writings.


Just like Bella...Edward dazzles me.

How did he do that?

I don't know.

But the book surely acts like a magnet....pulling me.
It's so hard to resist not opening the book..even during "office hours"
Spank me then! haha
My "boss" on the other hand is pleased with my performance.
I am able to finish all my works in just one sitting.
In my haste to finish the book
I found myself doing my work at a speed.
haha :)

I already had/have my time with a Prince
I had/have/having my time with a Batman also

Will I have the same meet and spend a precious time with a Vampire?

Humor me!

Edward...Bite me.
This last one is but a fantasy.


Sorry, I am out of reach lately.

But, you can find my eyes and my brain at Forks Washington.

Faithfully following the story of Edward and Bella.

Disturb me only when there's an "emergency".


I will be candid this time.

I am just so happy that I decided to watch Twilight the movie.

If not I would not have the interest to hook myself and read all the four books.

It's a different story with Harry Potter.

My fondness for HP started when I came to know the book and read it till the last chapter... then my interest for the movie followed.

"Twilight" serves as my great escape

from what? where?

From my Yahoo Inbox

Lately, I take no interest in opening my Inbox or my YM and read my emails.

No offense to those who often send me messages.

I honestly appreciate those who are thoughtful enough to remember me every now and then.

It's the action of having to answer all those emails that I dread.

I am not lazy to answer.

I just don't have the will or the interest to talk to my "email friends" right now.

But again...not to offend anyone...nothing will change. The friendship will remain

I just want to "escape" for now.

Just give me time to rest.

Before I resign to boredom.

And fill my mind with different thoughts other than focus on one person which I am not quite sure if that person is also thinking of me or even remembering me.

I am on this period wherein I feel too tired....talking about the same thing/person over and over again.

reading emails centering on "one topic".

as if that person will continuously be the center of my "life".

and some expects me to have an answer right away....

which I frankly don't have.

Right now...I am slowly but surely creating a distance

There are some things that are just but for a moment
But should not last a lifetime
Or else it would not be healthy anymore for my future.

The person and the memories will remain special to me of course.
and the communication has not ended.

I will be back to my normal state. I am sure.

To my dear friend in Japan: I miss you! Sorry for my absence.

I will get back when I have already freed my mind of some disturbances.

You and your family are always in my thoughts and prayers.

You are among the few who I truly value...who I only met from the Internet

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Sunday, December 7, 2008


I can survive without having new clothes, shoes and bags
but not without a new book
especially if it's really a good one.

I spent so much on books................
The two latest on my collections are "Eclipse" and "Breaking Dawn"
Yes, i am hooked with "Twilight" these days.

I am not yet over with Harry Potter.
I just find Edward Cullen and Bella Swan's romance "uniquely attractive"
For those who still don't know the's all about a young girl who fell in love with a Vampire.
An odd but magnificent love story.

My sin?
Breaking my resolution of "saving money for the rainy days"
Have to cut my expenses.
I will
But the good books are all coming out?
What to do?!?

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David defeats Goliath

Some says it's a mismatch
Some says he will lose
Some says he chose the wrong opponent
Some says this might not be good for his career


Only proves height doesn't's all in the skills^^

Congrats Pacman!!! Way to Go!!!

You are the pride of the Filipinos!

and well...again there were no crimes recorded.
All were busy watching "our boxing man"

Woohooo! Hurray!
I am just so happy.

Hey, Mr. Batman, you owe me a thousand bucks!
You lose!
Come to think of owe me a lot.
Pacquiao wins again.
What can you say about that huh?

Smile people!

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Sweet Remembrance

A nod, an eye-to-eye contact, a 5 second stare, two handshakes, two pats on my left arm, one wave and five warm smiles - enough to make that night memorable.

If it's the last time...then it's a sweet farewell.

This song reminds me of that night:

Title is: You found me by Kelly Clarkson

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me
from this high
I'd become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just
where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what
nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of
where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just
where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what
nobody could see
You found me
You found me

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just
where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what
nobody could see
You found me

(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just
where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what
nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me

Will it be the last time?
I know there will be another will depend on...chance.

Just happy that at least...he acknowledged my presence
and did not completely ignored me.

I thought he would not look back... but he did.

If I see him again...I promise to talk ^^
I always forget everything, when he's in front of me.
Like...i just want to stare at his face.
It is silly, I know
I will never get used to his presence.

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Friday, December 5, 2008

To be Immortal

When you can live forever, what do you live for?

Interesting question
Interesting thought

Got this from Twilight the Movie.

Yes...what do we live for? How nice would it be if we are immortals?

But what if we get too tired to live anymore?

Now thinking...

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Thursday, December 4, 2008


I am so happy today...
So happy that I think I will have a goodnight sleep and sweet dreams tonight. ^-^
I JUST SAW A RAINBOW TODAY!!! at exactly 5:20pm.

I was staring blankly on the window...thinking of someone special
when there it is...A RAINBOW!
I fought an urge to go and find its end...(for some gold^^)

I could no longer remember the last time I've seen one.
So today is a precious day to me.

December 4, 2008 - a date to remember

Mwah! Thank you Lord!!!

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